Thoughts On Pharmacology and The Search For A Cure

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In the ten years since I was diagnosed, I have tried eight different medications to manage my symptoms and progression, and never gave much it much thought or questioned my choices until the last few weeks. What changed? I’ve noticed a number of posts from various bloggers about their experiences with the drugs they take for MS and other chronic conditions, and two truths have become painfully obvious.

The first is that pharmaceuticals are the primary, and in some cases, the only option provided to us. The second is that trying these drugs is similar to purchasing a lottery ticket, in the hope of hitting the jackpot, only to be left with a hangover.

I’m not anti-drug, just anti Big-Pharma. After all, doesn’t it seem ludicrous that the entire idea of legalizing marijuana, medical or otherwise, still meets a ton of resistance as it’s labeled as a gateway drug, yet scripts of opiates are dispensed like candy, creating an addictive culture that turns to heroin when the supply is cut off, and the outrage is muted? Don’t get me started.

As I was saying, I’m not anti-drug, and there have been a handful that have helped me, but let’s be honest. Even with the drugs the FDA has approved, we’re still participating in a never-ending clinical trial, serving as lab rats or human petri dishes for Big-Pharma and the medical community in general.

Is that a harsh assessment? Maybe, but we willingly take stuff we know may not do a damn thing, and make us feel like shit in the process, but don’t think twice if that occurs, and gladly move onto the next option. Maybe that option will be better, but if not we keep trying other things until we find something that works even a little. After all, what’s the alternative?

I know that the stuff that I’ve been putting into my body all these years isn’t healthy. The chemo I took for over eight years isn’t good for the liver, and necessitated monthly blood tests to ensure my liver enzymes weren’t all fucked up. I know Ocrevus isn’t much better. So yes, I do think about what the long term health consequences of what I’m doing might be, but that does not get in the way of continuing the path I am on or trying something new. It’s a safe bet I’m not the only person who feels this way.

That may sound desperate to someone not living this life, and I know holistic options exist, diet for one, that might be worth pursuing. But I’m brainwashed like everyone else in thinking that pharmacology is the best option. Either that or I’m following the gospel of my neurologist without reservations. I trust him and think, perhaps foolishly, that if the drugs were doing more harm than good he’d tell me.

Having said that, I believe that pharmacology is not going to provide the ultimate solution if a “cure” is ever discovered. I’m of the opinion that if a cure is out there, stem cells will provide the key. After all, if you’re going to try to regenerate myelin, I doubt a pill is going to do it. Doesn’t it make  sense that something organic will create something new and better? Be that as it may, I’m not holding my breath hoping that a cure will either be found in my lifetime, or happen before I’m primed for the Dirt Nap.

As far as brain lesions are concerned, I don’t think they will ever crack that nut. That organ is the final frontier in the medical community, and we are light years away from truly understanding how to treat it.

I suspect all of us ultimately reach a point where we’ll get off the medical treadmill of procedures, injections, infusions, and pills. I know the day will come where I’ll jump off and focus on rest, diet and more holistic approaches. But I will first have to conclude the results no longer justify the effort, and am tired of going to hospitals, tired of getting poked, prodded and stuck, and tired of the expense.

Reading the posts I mentioned also made me reflect on the economics surrounding finding a cure for anything. More specifically, there are millions being poured into research through grants and donations to find the elusive cure for various chronic and deadly diseases, cancer and MS to name two,  but don’t you sometimes think it isn’t in a lot of people’s best interest to actually find one?

If Big Pharma found the answer, which I doubt will happen but let’s stay on that thread, then that premise doesn’t ring true. I mean, can you imagine what they would charge for the magic pill or shot that prevents cancer or cures MS? They could name their price and nobody would flinch.

But what if, as I believe, the answers do not lie with pharmacology. What would happen to the big organizations that champion the chase for a cure? How much would they lose in funding and donations?

My intent is not to imply that those who run these groups are only in it for the money, but let’s be realistic. Isn’t it in their best financial interests to keep chasing that cure than to actually discover one? After all, a significant percentage of revenue goes to overhead for some of these organizations. What happens if the money runs out or the flow is reduced to a trickle? Maybe I’m in a cynical mood tonight. I’d like to think it wouldn’t matter, but isn’t that naive?

It’s an interesting discussion, but probably pointless. After all, the medical community would actually have to find something that works, and in the immortal words of the neurologist I saw at Johns Hopkins during the early stages of my MS journey, when has medicine cured anything?